WeLcUM tO mY pAyGe...wELL theRe'S nOthIng rEaLLy kOoL thOugH buT o WeLL eNjOi rEAdIN' mY sH*tZ ha3 n DuN 4GeT tO sIgN iN dA' bOoK aNd dUn fOrGeT tO sUbsKrIpe, gIve Me suM tiNy bIt oF ReD aNd sUm gOod tIngS...HoPe u HaVe a GreAt TiMe iN mY XaNgUh...
I may not be rich nor be pretty, but I know how it feels like to buy friendship, happiness, fake laughter, fake smiles, and everything else. Everything feels so right, so happy...but yet they're all fake. They'll be gone by the end of the day, appear whenever is needed. That look you gave me, the way you stare and look at me, the way you smile, the way you laugh are all fake. I totally bought it at that moment. But in the end your head/heart is somewhere else. Honestly, it hurts...I mean all I ever wanted is just a simple TRUE FRIENDSHIP...how hard is it? I miss everything, I miss the past, I miss the drive, I miss the talk, I miss the time, I miss the laughter, I miss the smiles, I miss the gossips, I miss everything,
I miss you.
everyone had their "If I could turn back in time" moment, for me, if I could turn back in time, I promise you i'll notice you sooner, I'll fall for you from the first time I saw you in that red/orange top, I'll stop asking how guys are in front of you, I'll act stupid and tell you 'can you teach me how to kiss?', you will be my first, i'll be your first, you'll be my only, I'll be your only, you'll be my last, therefore i will be you last.
I really need to let go of you.
I'm sorry I cared, I'm sorry I loved, Sorry I fell
hmmm Every time I watch Korean Drama or Korean movies, I get this jittery feeling! *SIGH* If only it happens in real life... gahhhh I've so much in mind but yet I can't get it out to write... -_-" tomorrow is Sabbath..Me and Bejo has finally slowly umm..."baikan" oh wait..you didn't know right? Me and Bejo got in a stupid fight over his glasses.. -___-" so lame!! and it was like erm 5months ago??? but now we're slowllllly...SLLLLLOOOWWWWWLLLLYYYYYY baikan lagi...After Pio left, I hang out with Gaby alot..then one weekend..BAM! Me, Gaby, BIlly, Kk,Paco, Ella Tiwi and Bejo are hanging out at Universal Studio!!!! then the next couple of weeks Me sis billy gaby went to Laguna Church cuz its his bday. and then on sunday we all went to Universal againnnnnnnn (since we all have annual pass) ahahhaha...and then the next week it was Memorial Day weekedn...so on Saturday we went to Colton church ..then practice..then on SUndah we went to Laguna for Laguna Indo Church anniv. then we all got tired went to Bejo's house..and then to my surprise he offered me "Teh Kotak"..i mean seriously..he NEVER wanted to talk to me nor to see me..he would usually ignore me..and Im getting along with his gf too..and after we went to this chinese weird restaurant and i was sitting next to him..slowly but its starting.. =) its good to have (starting to) make a new friendship with an old friend..after all he's my friend ever since 3rd grade!! he's the longest friend ive had....=( so yeahh...and thennnn on Monday after we got back from the beach, me and bejo was online...and our friend from indo juga..so i conferenced them i just felt as if we were a bunch of 5th graders all over again... gtu deh..pokoknya...i like this feeling...
as I sit here, listening to The Blessings practice I've always wanted to be one of them... I want to know how's it like to have adrenaline rushing through my veins, to be nervous on stage, to praise God with the voice given, to have an angelic voice, to gives people chills running in their back bone, to have people say "wow, that was really beautiful" or "wow, your voice is amazing" and know that it all come from Jesus... but I know I can't sing... ughhh! :[ but despite that I can't sing, I can always try again and again...
